Looking for My Heart’s Desire
Much of the time
we find what we are looking for–
be that keys or trouble
or some form of our heart’s desire.
~ Chris Heeter from On Seeking
I’m at the stage of my life where I spend more time than I’d like trying to remember why I walked into a room. If I retrace my steps, I can usually pick up the thread of my thoughts and find the reason. The item itself was always there; I just had to remember I was looking for it. The same is true of my heart’s desire.
Asking myself what I’m looking for feels different than asking what I want to do or be. I want to be successful at helping people. I want to be a person of integrity and generosity. But I look for a world where everyone treats others with respect and the earth with care, and where all gifts are valued and used. If that’s what I want to find, how can I train my eyes and heart to see that?
It’s a continuous practice to look for the good, the gifts, the opportunities to give and receive grace. All the other things I want to do and be help to create the world I want to live in. Some may find this view naive. Of course, there’s bad, sad, sick stuff out in the world. It’s easy to see it and believe that’s all there is. But the beautiful and heroic are there, too, and by seeing it, I help to make it a larger part of the world. I just need to remember I’m looking for my heart’s desire in order to find it.